Sometimes I just wonder…man, look at us and our god damn first world problems. Seriously, its disturbing. To say the least…Yet we still sit here and complain about the things that don’t matter. I point the finger at myself first, before pointing it in any other direction.
It scares me…I don’t want to be this person. I try my best to not bitch about what I have or don’t have. But I feel like I fail at that. Miserably. I feel as if no matter how happy I can be there’s always a thought that drifts by in my mind that makes me go “Well, fuck. My. Life”. Not out loud, necessarily. Not even to anyone. But just to myself. And that scares me…that right there is pushing me in a direction I don’t want to go. There’s not a thing that should make me complain about any aspects of my life. Not to say I have a extremely lavish life…no. I have gone through and go through things that I wouldn’t want anybody else going through. I have been through the rough and sometimes it feels like I still am. There are times when I worry about my car breaking down. Times when I worry about paying rent or the electric bill. But I’m never in situation which I can’t manage…which I can’t figure out. Then why the fuck would I need to complain. And I don’t. At least I try not to. But sometimes I slip.
I shouldn’t though. And that disturbs me.
You could take every single materialistic thing away from me right now and I should still be able walk away with a smile on my face. Because I know there are more important things in life. Family, Friends, Morals, Principle, and Reputation. That is all that should matter to you at any given moment on this planet. Nothing else matters. Not a single damn thing. Not your life. Not your car. Not your education. Not your job. Not even death. Because at that point…at the point where you have lost appreciation for those five things…not even death will come easily.
I see all these people graduating and cant help but feel that I’m eons behind! Damn it! I wish I had loads of money so I didn’t have to work and could take 21 hours every semester and be done with it all. I also wish I was smart!
So lets get this straight…NATO attacks & kills 24 soldiers in a sovereign nation. They’ll call it an accident & blame the other guy for firing first & everyone will act & is acting like the attack was well deserved. But come tomorrow you reverse the roles & the other guy will be labeled a terrorist nation. Get your priorities straight & your ass off the high horse, America. I don’t give a rats ass if this offends you. I am an American & it offends the hell out of me that we police the world like God!
Sometimes when the things and people you want are right in front of you…well that’s just it. You don’t see them right in front of you. And you’re a god damn idiot for not realizing that they’re right in front of you. And no one is to blame but yourself…
End of this story.
Good Bye
Sometimes you disappoint me…that maybe I picked the wrong girl…
But then I realize…who am I kidding, I never had or will have even the slightest chance…
Friend zone it is then….Alrighty then, yay!
